First thing in the morning, I had to take my does to be disbudded--again. This was Julie's third time. Let me just say that the disbudding of a 70ish pound goat that you've fallen absolutely head over heels for is not a fun thing to witness. I'm not that tough, I'm afraid. After that, I decided that Jill's little scurs could break off or I could do that another time. One was more than enough for me today. I hope I don't regret that decision later.
Samuel has not wanted to visit her since the disbudding. Her head creeps him out. He isn't alone. My appetite has been diminished all day. I keep going out to check on her, even though I don't want to see her burnt little head, because I have all these "what if" fears that run through my mind. I'm glad goats don't think about encephalitis, infection, or fly infestation... She won't let me comfort her. I don't think she trusts me right now. I wouldn't trust me either.
The kiddo's music lessons went well enough. I need to learn "O Come Little Children" better so I can work on it with Samuel more. I think next week, we may try doing Shiphrah's lesson before Samuel's. She loses her ability to concentrate before she ever gets started!
My big goal for the week is to get the fence for the boys' pen completed and their hay feeder cleaned out. The girls have been using it as a crib (for sleeping!) and a potty... Bleach will be in order. I hope to bring my boys home next week sometime.
Anyhow, Julie's disbudding has had me on my knees more than once today. Samuel has joined me, and while it's not a fun thing to pray about, it is nice to pray with Samuel over something other than the "normal"... like a meal, a spanking, or an irrational childish fear. Maybe it is an irrational, childish fear, but it's mine!
2 comments:
Billie, I hope today was a better day for you. Giving your concerns to the Lord whether they are over human or animal "kids" is just what He asks of us. I understand how 4-footed creatures can become very dear to you. I love our 2 German Shepherds and hurt when they hurt (and rejoice when it is playtime and they are hamming it up).
Know that time really can heal wounds and Julie will forgive and forget soon. While it is a difficult, early life lesson for Samuel, the experience did allow you positives---prayer time together, how to express sympathy maturely, and the power of love for God's creatures.
While my prayers for the last 6 months have often included the precious Hallman family, I asked the Lord for specific comfort for you and Samuel today. I hope you received it.
Thank you Selena! We had a very relaxing day at home, just not doing much of anything. We ate dinner on the front deck last night and got in just before the rain started. :) Julie is sore, but otherwise well--good appetite and activity. Samuel is a little less "creeped out" and praying with him really was nice. I want to do more of that!
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